The Un-Known Feelings

Its a fine day again...no work to do...nothing to think...nothing to remember...

Same as always...

I am carried away by memories i want to control...

The same UNKNOWN feelings...

And i am falling...down and down...suddenly..a line said by one of my friend blinked...

"Tu Bekar And Barbad Ho Chuka Hai...All Time Udas..."

And i started thinking is it true????????  the one who always have a smile on his face...

People called me joker bcz of my funny activities...M i really dumb and full of sadness now????????

Why...???????? What happened to me????????  Why I am like this now????????

I Made a promise to my self that i will b happy in all condition...then Why i m like this...???????

What ever happens in my life is just bcz i made it happened...then why i m sad ...?????

I am really and idiot...stupid guy...not using my mind...stop thinking and listening only of my heart...

That's y i m carried away by these exhausted and un necessary feelings...

I have to stop them...i have to make up my mind to control them...????????

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i have to do it!!!  and i have to do it now...  i m feeling cheer full that at last i come to an end...at last i choose strictly what to do with these feelings...

But then...a question raised by my heart..."How To do It...????"  when my heart is not with me...

How can i concentrate on other things...?????????????

And the answere came straight forward ....ITS IMPOSSIBLE...

I can't control it...i simply can't...It then feeling bcz of whom i m still alive...

Its in my blood....its in my heart..and its in my soul...

I have ti live with them....And I will...

Its measurable moment now...i m feeling both happy... and sad...

I m smiling...same time i have tears in my eyes...I am Purely An IDIOT...

But I love ...And I will...till my last Breath...